Just imargin, being pregnant...at a young age..well first of all if that isnt what you want, you freak out..having all sorts of ideas in your head..figuring out whether to get rid of it or keep it..oh shoot..what are your family going to say??well forget about friends or school...you are definitely going to be a drop out..but hey you get through it eventually right..maybe after nine months when the little one arrives and everyone seeing how adorable it is (he or she)...your parents become grand parents..and if you live at home, they will probably take care of the baby, whiles you start afresh...note the changes...your new born baby becomes the new you for your parents...raising children is like being on a trial...if it doesn go well with a kid, the parent has lost..so this will be like a new trial for your parents to raise up your child and bring him or her in the appropriate manner so they dont end up like you...word...you life is messed up...though you didn commit a crime...you just gave birth at an early age...well well, it all end up well eventually...somethings does...
Now dropping out of school...well you can always pick it up at where you started...or probably start with something else...I mean you are still young and there is plenty of opportunities..oh no..not for you if you are living in a development country...to make it brief..your life is ruined..unless you come from a family with a top job or something...either way..all turn out well...you might get help from somewhere...maybe from a good samaritan..well i wonder if there is one nowadays..if you ask me where all the good deeds and people have gone..i will tell you they are all on survival camps...trying to survive and havent got enough time to care for others...all the same...dont worry be happy...
yeh i know..im just babling around...but wait, i will get to the point...im just warming up with some boring notes...
My point this morning is...life is full of shit...or wait a minute...is it people that is full of shit or life? i mean life was there before we came...then I guess peop....ok wait..how about life is a trial? well more like it...we will always rise when storms comes our way of life..well at times we do...and at times we dont even bother..ok not like we dont give a damn anymore...we just end up not knowing which way to go again...well if only we see the way though..really hard...But i have come to realise something...it has always been only one thing that got us tripping all the time...we have been there before when we were teenagers..well it was just a puppy thing that we played with..but growing up with it later on, and understanind the fruitful and its excitment, it carries us like waves...and you know how dangerous waves are...but yet it is really fun when surfing...in that case we are all surfers..who are bound to fall in the sea once in a life time...but we still rise up....
a couple of times, i will meet up with some friends, we have dinner, we chat and we laugh...now mind you...these are friends who has come a long way with their education, very smart, have good hearts and very pretty too...now what else...on top of all they are good girls...hard to find good girls nowadays...we always talk about everything, from politics to globalisation, to our life in europe and to the one we use to have back home in Africa...and then the issue diverts to the direction of the big L....well i wouldnt say all of us have been having bad luck when it comes to that...its just not the time yet...if things were to happen at the same time to everybody, don you think it would have been very boring...?anyways, it got pretty funny when one of my friends said;
"we seem to have everything under control, whether family school, friends. but it is just only one thing that is very hard to understand..its like we cant control its direction. we know what we want to do in the furture when growning up, we seem to follow it and ends up in the university..and if we dont like the course we have chosen, we switch right away without any problem...but love...love is something else"
Some of my friends will probably think they have been cursed...well i do think of that sometimes...especially when down to the road has been like going down to the smelly river side to get some water that I am totaly aware will make me sick and send me to my bed for days...it hurts...and it gets to a certain point when you dont even feel the pain again cos you force your self to ignore it...the worse thing is when you dont even know why it hurts because no one is there to tell you why...but what makes things settle is when you are aware of the pain from the very beginning..it kind of prepare you for what is coming next...and that is when you stand still and tall...breaking up the waves and surfing through the wind..making it feel like the wave is actually the one throwing out the white flag....
A very good friend of mine told me that love has it ways of dealing with us human beings...and it is the will of God...and that things happens for a reason..when love hurts, it is probably a sign of making you awrae of it..preparing you and giving you the teachings of it...love is happiness and pain in one...sometimes it is happiness first and then the pain comes after....its a cirlce of love...through happiness, we know that love exist..and through the pain we know love exists...and the next time we come across love again..and it is very real..we appreciate it...and it appreciate us as well...but all the same..it is just this one thing that got us all tripping...and we always rise up..always...
