torsdag 26. februar 2009

just hopeful

Ever heard of Yolanda Adams? A gospel singer who sings about everything about being a christian, about Jesus, God and being hopeful as a child of God...I like hyer songs and they are very encouraging. Even if your are not a christian but has got to a certain point in your life where you feel like giving up, well then she is the right woman to listen to. Open up my heart, still I rise and never give up are some of my favourite.

As rational human beings, we all have choices. The choice to love or hate, the choice to hurt someone or make them happy, the choice to respect or disrespect others, the choice to be cruel or nice and a lot more. But what I am wondering is the choice of being stupid..is it something that is bound to happen in life or we make choices for being stupid.?I mean nobody just wake up one early morning and decides to a fool...maybe others do but I have never thought of doing that...Being nice on the other hand, well it isnt an obligatory but it is very human to be nice to others and ourselves. The benefit of it..well I dont know..all I know is it feels good to be nice or do nice deeds. I am trying to get to a point, due to what I experienced this morning...
Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like, "enough is enough"?I have..so many times...but the way I am to nice, I just give in and dont react like I am supposed to. I dont think i will classify myself to be stupid, I just happen to have a huge big and kind heart. I dont know how some people do it..I mean of not showing their consciuos...I dont have the guts of being cruel or hurting someone...well maybe I can hurt someone but not intentionally.

Our choices to love is somehow not limited but can be limited if the person we love is not the person we thought could be...when we dont limit ourselves after everything we have thought of this person, does it make us stupid or blindfolded..? well maybe both...we become blindfolded beacuse of our stupidity, and because we are at times stupid, we are blindfolded...but all I know is love is one powerful experience to deal with...both warm and cold...bitter but sweet...I wonder how this is possible...

The statement I heard this morning was like a long time coming..i guess I needed a push for that...it felt like I was being spoken to by somebody through signs...this is so not the first time that i have seen a couple of signs that yells at me...but my hard headed brain refuses to grasp that...it isnt stupidity...its love and my big heart once again....I could go on and on and probably not sound logical..but all the same...we as rational human beings are full of mistakes..and we learn from it everyday...Love is just love...its something that is hard to grasp...I have tried not to...;)..and I am beginning to feel like love is inevitable...